I really don't know but my biggest fear would not be death but it would definitely be leaving behind Kate and knowing the pain heartbreaking suffering she will be feeling, so I guess I would do whatever I could to help her be able to handle my passing. I would want her to live and be happy, I'd want her to smile and enjoy life and I would probably tell her it's ok to move on and that I want her to find happiness with some one who will love her and take care of her and that though I may be dead my love for her is something that will always be with her and that will last an eternity.